I was born here itself in this wonderful city Bombay aka Mumbai on the eighteenth of March 1982. Birth is the most important event of everyone's life and it seems kind of unfair that we don't have any recollection about it. And I was no exception. So I have to rely upon everyone else present at that time as to what really happened. And from what I hear, it was incredible. I weighed in at 9 pounds 10 ounces, heavier than almost any usual baby around. And that was the beginning of the awesomest joyride-of-a-life I have ever experienced.


      My Mom and my neighbours say I was a very healthy plump kid. Healthy maybe, but I don't think anyone who knows me now could imagine me to be plump. Not even me. But belief is not what this world runs on. Anyway I was the heaviest baby around... and that lasted for quite some time. Chubby, rotund, cute - the works. Neighbours say I waddled like a duck. Darn lucky I don't do that anymore, I say. There's a time and a place for everything. Back when I was a baby, I could've pulled off a duck walk and even made everyone call me cute. If I were to do that now, I'd be laughed at the way I laugh at someone I know. Its amazing how times change! Check out for yourself.


      Anyway, the baby food and the diapers stop sometime and suddenly we're in a whole new world. As it is for everyone, kindergarten was a learning experience in many ways. It showed me how weird and simple the world is for a tiny tot. And bloody embarassing at times. It showed me how every kid around could do the most insane and stupid things. It also made me realise how I could almost always match up to those stunts. It showed me how I'd never really get around to supporting institutionalised education for the rest of my life. And it also showed me the power of denial. That was something I could, would and have used at many times in my life. :)


      You know this is pretty confusing. Talking about my growing years. Funny part being I don't even remember half of them. I do have some recollections though. And not very humourous ones at that. I've got memories of throwing tantrums of going to school, being punished at school, crying my heart out at being forced to go to school, but not all of the memories are bad.


      I don't remember much about my childhood days except that I used to really HATE going to school and the smell of the new books during the monsoon. I've never really understood how kids love to go to school... but, on the other hand, schools have a lot more fun nowadays. Mine wasn't such a great school or anything, 'twas pretty okay. Not pretty, but okay. Primary school went by, and I entered my secondary level of education. That was boring too. What with Marathi and History and the god-forsaken Civics and Economics, (yuuck!!) it had to be. I'd like to tell all the people reading this... I don't know what it is with mostly everyone, but I am a person who truly likes Maths a lot. I might seem crazy to a lot of you... but that's the way I am. There are very few things I am really good at, and Maths is one of them. I don't really like Geometry as such... just plain ol' Algebra and Arithmetic.


      I've never really been a school-going person. Never liked it enough somehow. I could always think of something or the other that would be anyday better than trying to pay attention to what was taught in school. But its not that I was bad at studies. I was pretty good. I'd waste the entire semester and sit down with my books the day before the exam and freak out. I'd be shit scared at times, and I'd vow to study beforehand the next time. The fact was and still is, I'm a true procrastinator, so I never got down to studying the way I'd promised myself. Although procrastination is something I'd rather not discuss. Atleast... not yet. :)


      As I said, my school wasn't that great... in fact, it was hardly that good. Which is something a smartass student is looking for. All most guys in school want is some way to give their egos a boost, and honestly saying, that was pretty easy in my school. By the time I passed my tenth, I was flying too high. Waiting to be shot down. But enough talk about school... atleast for now.


      College was one of the best things to happen to my life. I still remember the first day of college and that it pretty much sucked. I also remember being warned against going near the canteen by this English teacher, although for the life of me I don't know why she told us so. Later on, the canteen was to form and still forms the centre of attention of my college life. I also remember being so bored with the first couple of days of college, that we decided to go out and get ragged just so that we'd encounter some excitement. And that was probably the first time I realised my height disadvantaged me. I guess everyone thought we weren't freshers and that particular day, we didn't get the excitement we were looking for. But there was never any shortage of excitement... not in MY college. Every day was an adventure waiting to happen. Someone pulling a prank on you, some guy falling for a girl from your group, people making fools out of themselves... those were the good old days.


      Life is full of days when crushes came, and crushes went. And not even the memories of them remained. And then somewhere in life, you encounter love. Or what you think is love. And pray and hope is love. Funny part is, finding love is pretty easy. Keeping it alive at both ends is the tough part. All I can say about love is you just can't explain love or discuss it. All you can do is experience and feel it. And enjoy it while it lasts. Unlike what most people would like to believe, it usually doesn't last forever. For some people it lasts, for some it doesn't. The same way some people are lucky, while some are not. But I'm not saying what goes with what. If you know what I'm talking about, you'll KNOW.


      You know life has a funny way of growing on you. Before you know it, you're bloody old to do anything about it. Everyone of us realises we've missed out on a lot in life... the lucky ones realise it sooner than the others. I've realised it at what most people would call the ripe young age of 18. But sometimes I still feel I'm late.


      I don't know what to do with my life... I mean, there has to be some bigger picture where I fit in. What do I do? Well, what do I want from my life? Be a happy person when I die... and, be remembered as a really good human. But isn't that what everyone wants? What am I studying? Science. Why? I have NO IDEA! But the very fact that I don't want anything to do with Physics, Chemistry or Biology makes me wonder... it makes you wonder too, doesn't it? I could go in for Journalism... but everyone knows how journalists usually struggle to make ends meet. I could become a free-lance writer... but then I don't know how to start or whom to approach. I guess I'm one of those people who openly say they're confused in life... ...and say it with a grin. :-)


      I've learned a lot in life. Or so I'd like to believe. Or atleast make others believe I have. I've learned that the best way to treat people is the best way you CAN treat them. I've learned that although I can't make the world the way I want it to be, I still believe I can. I've learned that I'm not too demanding when it comes to life. I've also learned I'm a lot different from the usual run-of-the-mill teen. I've also learned that the easiest thing to happen to you is to be misunderstood. And how difficult it is to build trust among people. I've learned that its better to keep your mouth shut and appear like an idiot rather than open it and remove all doubt. I've also learned that most people around still haven't learnt that. :)


      I've learned that one should never betray themselves. You owe some explanations to yourself more than to anyone else. No one will be with you for the rest of your life except yourself, and as much as you hope you find that person, you probably won't. If you do find such a person, you've got more out of life already than what many of us ever will. So it makes sense for you to make the most of the best you have, while you still have it. Make the most of your life, while you still can. We don't usually count our blessings, instead ponder why we don't have things which we don't. We don't look around to realise how lucky most of us are... maybe its time we start doing that.


      The biggest thing I've learned so far is that I don't know anything about life or myself. And that I've still got a long way to go. And a lot to learn and remember from it.


      As of now, that is, updating this site, on the 6th of October, 12:36 p.m., I realise that I am really very good at doing something most people don't like people doing. In case you're wondering, I'm talking about Nothing. Anyway, right now, I just finished my term exams of S.Y.B.Sc. in Computer Science. And hopefully, like the last set of exams I gave, I'll pass these ones too. Although this time I actually started more than just a day before the exams. Which gives me a REALLY good chance of doin' that! Anyway If I don't, I don't think you'll be seeing a lot of me online. :) And even if I do fail, that does nothing to show how much I actually know. :) But that's another story for another day.


      Ever feel like you want to do a million things but don't know where to start? I do, and thats exactly what I'm going through in my life right now. There are a million things I could do, but honestly, I don't know where to start. I look around, and I see people getting on with their lives. As for me, I'd rather sit and design webpages for people. For that, there's something missing though. PEOPLE. I don't have anyone for whom I could design webpages, so again, I'm back to square one. But not for long. But that's not for me to decide. Only time shall tell.


      Till now, I've tried my hand at a few more games than I had first time I put up this site. I've given up playing pool... although I do try my hand at it once in about six months or so. Besides that, I've played Air Hockey, and I've gone for bowling. For those of you who think otherwise, I enjoyed Air Hockey more than bowling. Hmmm... in a way but not really!!! But since the last time I updated the site in May, I'd given up bowling as well. Didn't fancy it much... but I just played it again recently. And enjoyed it... to my surprise! I've gone to COs about thrice I think. And I visited Strike 10 four-five times as well. For all of us who've been to COs, we know there's probably nothing in India which can match up to it. But even then, Strike 10's a pretty cool place to hang out. In terms of size, Strike 10 is almost next to nothing compared to COs. But the entire ambience, the catchy music with a pretty cool DJ, and the proximity of everything along with the amazing food makes up for quite a lot.


      Okay, there's another thing I've decided to do. Finally, after 18 years of living without 'The Knowledge', I've decided I finally want to LEARN TO SWIM. Its really dumb, you know. One bad experience with a swimming coach when I was 5, and I've never gone too close to a swimming pool. Unless it was shallow, and I was away from people who wanted to teach me. But now, I have to get over it. I mean, its high time. I'm probably the only one I know in college who doesn't know how to swim. As for my society, I hardly know anyone who KNOWS how to swim. Even then, if there are any ways I'll get through the humidity in Bombay this year, swimming's gotta be one of them.


      Growing up has been quite an experience for me. I've always had a soft corner for sentimental pap. And I've fallen for all kinds of stunts. I've had people come up to me and say I'm a sucker for sob stories. And all I've done at those times is smile back. Because I realise those people might be right. Atleast some of the times.


      By the way, when you're going through so much in life, somewhere along the line the magical 18th birthday comes along. As we 'adults' know, none of that magic really happens. Your 18th birthday comes and goes just like any other day, except for the celebrations all around. And at the end of the day, you realise you're not an 'adult'. You haven't turned any smarter, or wittier, or cooler than you were the day before. You're not more mature or more understanding, you're the same way you were the day before. You haven't turned into God's gift to mankind... or should I say adulthood. You still have the same problems you had before and there's nothing special you can do about them.


      The last two years in college, I had been involved in Rotaract. And its was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. For the uninitiated, Rotaract is an International Youth Organization and its members aka Rotaractors work toward benefitting the society. Its been a learning experience and I've come across many hard-working and amazing people who've taught me a great deal. And its made me realize one fact I've heard all along - 'There's NO substitute for HARD WORK.' Although I know a lot of people out there wish there was - but the fact still remains - NO substitute!!!


      As of 27th January 2001, 6:52 p.m., life is as satisfying it can get. I love the fact that relationships for me hold top priority and the only thing I'll ever want from life is to be successful at them. And I don't remember if life has ever been better than this.


      Life goes on forever and so does my endeavour to understand more about it... each day makes us grow in a special way and I've realised life is a continuous learning experience... and that our learning won't end till we die. But I do have to stop writing sometime. So long then. I'll go live my life the only way I know how, and I'll catch up with you later.